Godma?

I had a short and quick lunch with J today. It was quite interesting to catch up with her. She mentioned that her friend, E, is Mikayla's godma, but she hasn't even visited her in the last five years and that Mikayla doesn't even know how she looks like! Well, that story sounds familiar...which brings us back to Kyan's godma. Sometimes I don't even remember he HAD one. Well, it started when I was expecting and my friend, S, was so excited for me that she insisted to be Kyan's godma. Yes, as simple as that. I don't really like the idea but was quite indifferent about it, hoping she'll get the idea but she didn't. So she proclaimed to be Kyan's godma. That's how far the story stretches. I can count the number of times she'd actually visited or seen Kyan, all within my fingers still. She was there when Kyan was born, his 1st and 2nd birthday and that's about it, plus the 2 to 3 times ad hoc visits. She didn't send Kyan any birthday present for his 3rd or 4th birthday. Distance is always cited as a factor. I don't think Kyan even remembers who she is. Sad, but this so-called Godma is about as phantom as she is. I think I should count myself lucky that she bothered to pay a visit to my house when Rayden was born at 12am cos she was waiting for her brother to fetch her here. Sometimes I wonder if she realises that children do need to sleep early.

Our friendship trails back to our NIE days where we spent many a splendoured times together. We were as close as sisters can be. We confided in each other and we practically go everywhere together. I remembered when her electricity was cut off, I lent her money to pay off her bills (of course she returned every bit of it). She didn't give me anything for my wedding cos she claimed that it was not pay day yet. That I turned 2 blind eyes to. Then she got to know G, a male close friend and that's when she turned hip and happening. Now I'm not being sour but each time she has a new man, she thinks she can brush me aside but when she runs into problems, there she'll come looking for me. She doesn't exactly have my best interests at heart, that's how I feel. When she wants to take up loan from James, she asked me if I could do it for her. Well, I'm glad I turned it down. The final straw came when she didn't attend Rayden's 1st birthday. She smsed me saying that she was reprimanded by her mum for missing the flight to her cousin's wedding so she felt rotten, hence not in the mood to attend his party. I was blown off, I mean what kind of excuse is that? Does she regard me as a friend at all? We've not spoken to each other since Rayden's birthday and I've left things at that.

It's sad how things turned out. I've sacrificed a lot for her. The latest being going to "Actors" with her so that we can catch a glipse of "S", thereafter coming home to an angry husband cos Kyan could not sleep without me, and he even fell off the bed that night. My heart ached for my poor baby then. Now, on thinking back - are all these necessary? Are my efforts being appreciated? I'm thoroughly disappointed.

So when over lunch, J and I spoke about being someone's godparent, I really wonder why people volunteer themselves for this kind of duty without putting their heart and mind and soul into it?

I rest my case.

Truth..

What goes around comes around....proven...

My new upgrade!

I've splurged on a half a carat sized diamond earrings to replace the one I've lost. I know I'm overspending but I can't help it. I've a soft spot for diamonds. Now I'm not going to look at diamonds for the next 10 years! I'm happy with all that I have!

A New Addition!

After much consideration and thought, we've finally set our eyes upon a 2nd hand metallic grey Mazda 3! We paid for the downpayment (25% of sale price) and settled all paperwork. Now we are waiting for the loan to be approved and the collection of the car thereafter! It's a big investment and we are extremely excited about it. Can't wait to sit in it. Note that I used the word - "sit". I can't muster enough courage to drive the car yet. Too out of tune in driving. Asri is different, he dreams about the car and can't wait to drive it! If all goes well, we collect the car next Thursday...

Heartbroken

I've lost one side of my diamond earrings today. Probably dropped it at Compasspoint when I was carrying Rayden and he was struggling to get down to walk. I'm so so sad. Kyan sensed my sadness and he comforted me by telling me that he'll help me search for it. He did but to no avail. He even scolded Rayden for making me sad.

Pissed! (bitching)

Today J came to me and told me that Teacher Florence had commented that Kyan is very good with dates and telling time. However, he seems to be in a world of his own and that sometimes he doesn't mix with the kids. Somehow the term 'austistic' came into our conversation. He only doesn't possess good life skills like wearing his own clothes and packing his stuff. That had me worried. I told C about it. She said this friend of ours always does this. She'll hear about certain things from the teachers and tell us all this. Well, it could cause us unnecessary worry and stress, which has indeed set me pondering! She then advised me to consult Teacher Florence personally. I did. She clarified that Kyan is a bright and intelligent child. He doesn't give behavourial problems and does behave well in school. Only certain times, he seems to be in his own world and she has to divert his attention back to where they were. And she added that it's not so bad. He'll struggle with wearing his clothes but he's not the worst. She told me not to worry. He also mixes well with his friends. Well, I feel slightly relieved. I told Asri about it. He's very against J. He even questioned what was her motive in doing all this? To get me worried? To boast that her child is well behaved and good?


J and I were good friends when I started teaching at E. Then after some time she distanced herself from me. At first I felt rather puzzled and even hurt by her actions. After that I left E and could not be bothered with her. Recently I heard from C that she said she was very stressed with me cos I'm always telling her what Kyan can do, so in other words, I'm showing off my kid. At first, I was quite pissed hearing that. I did not show off anything! She was the one who asked me what Kyan can or cannot do in the first place! Then after thinking for sometime, I am amused, I can't believe that I actually have the ability to stress people out...cool

Asri questioned her purpose in singling out children and discussing their behaviour with the teacher. He added that she's doing a lot of comparing herself! C mentioned that she'd rather not hear about what or how her chidren are doing from her mouth.


Then her child - I hate it when Kyan mixes with her cos he'll whine a lot and end up being scolded by me. She always try to show off in front of Kyan and kids being kids, they'll always want what the other has. For example, she was eating a hot dog bun when she told Kyan that she has a bun and that he doesn't. Kyan would whine that he wants one! Just today, when we reached CP's lift lobby, I told Kyan to press the lift button for me. Kyan ran to want to press the lift button but her daughter ran ahead and used her hands to cover both up and down buttons so that Kyan couldn't press any. How vicious is that! Of cos Kyan whined again. So I really hate how Kyan behaves in front of her daughter. It's just not fair that he has to get scoldings from me all the time.


No wonder familiarity breeds contempt. I'm going to distance myself from her, and my kids from her kids!

Blissful 18+++ birthday

My birthday came and went. I'm feeling a bit sentimental this time, probably it hit me this year cos I realised age is catching up with me! *SOB*. Anyway, I really enjoyed myself this year!

It started with a surprise birthday cake in which Asri was trying to put candles on when Kyan came into the room to inform me that daddy bought a cake for me. *smiles* The cake was superb! Tell me how not to put on weight despite eating the cake at 12 midnight, thereafter dozing off to sleep?
On Sunday I had tuition at Victoria. Mr Ong surprised me by coming into the classroom with a birthday cake! So sweet of him. It was a huge cake and I shared it with everyone at the centre.

Then I got my present from Asri and the boys- a pair of trilogy earrings, each diamond stands for each of the 3 boys in my life. I'm touched. We went for dinner at HRC in the evening. We had a wonderful time although Rayden created a food mess at the restaurant.


I'm truly blessed. So excited with the earrings, (*LOL*) and all the friends who had smsed or fbed birthday wishes. I'm touched that so many remembered! Thanks pals.