Godma?

I had a short and quick lunch with J today. It was quite interesting to catch up with her. She mentioned that her friend, E, is Mikayla's godma, but she hasn't even visited her in the last five years and that Mikayla doesn't even know how she looks like! Well, that story sounds familiar...which brings us back to Kyan's godma. Sometimes I don't even remember he HAD one. Well, it started when I was expecting and my friend, S, was so excited for me that she insisted to be Kyan's godma. Yes, as simple as that. I don't really like the idea but was quite indifferent about it, hoping she'll get the idea but she didn't. So she proclaimed to be Kyan's godma. That's how far the story stretches. I can count the number of times she'd actually visited or seen Kyan, all within my fingers still. She was there when Kyan was born, his 1st and 2nd birthday and that's about it, plus the 2 to 3 times ad hoc visits. She didn't send Kyan any birthday present for his 3rd or 4th birthday. Distance is always cited as a factor. I don't think Kyan even remembers who she is. Sad, but this so-called Godma is about as phantom as she is. I think I should count myself lucky that she bothered to pay a visit to my house when Rayden was born at 12am cos she was waiting for her brother to fetch her here. Sometimes I wonder if she realises that children do need to sleep early.

Our friendship trails back to our NIE days where we spent many a splendoured times together. We were as close as sisters can be. We confided in each other and we practically go everywhere together. I remembered when her electricity was cut off, I lent her money to pay off her bills (of course she returned every bit of it). She didn't give me anything for my wedding cos she claimed that it was not pay day yet. That I turned 2 blind eyes to. Then she got to know G, a male close friend and that's when she turned hip and happening. Now I'm not being sour but each time she has a new man, she thinks she can brush me aside but when she runs into problems, there she'll come looking for me. She doesn't exactly have my best interests at heart, that's how I feel. When she wants to take up loan from James, she asked me if I could do it for her. Well, I'm glad I turned it down. The final straw came when she didn't attend Rayden's 1st birthday. She smsed me saying that she was reprimanded by her mum for missing the flight to her cousin's wedding so she felt rotten, hence not in the mood to attend his party. I was blown off, I mean what kind of excuse is that? Does she regard me as a friend at all? We've not spoken to each other since Rayden's birthday and I've left things at that.

It's sad how things turned out. I've sacrificed a lot for her. The latest being going to "Actors" with her so that we can catch a glipse of "S", thereafter coming home to an angry husband cos Kyan could not sleep without me, and he even fell off the bed that night. My heart ached for my poor baby then. Now, on thinking back - are all these necessary? Are my efforts being appreciated? I'm thoroughly disappointed.

So when over lunch, J and I spoke about being someone's godparent, I really wonder why people volunteer themselves for this kind of duty without putting their heart and mind and soul into it?

I rest my case.

Truth..

What goes around comes around....proven...

My new upgrade!

I've splurged on a half a carat sized diamond earrings to replace the one I've lost. I know I'm overspending but I can't help it. I've a soft spot for diamonds. Now I'm not going to look at diamonds for the next 10 years! I'm happy with all that I have!

A New Addition!

After much consideration and thought, we've finally set our eyes upon a 2nd hand metallic grey Mazda 3! We paid for the downpayment (25% of sale price) and settled all paperwork. Now we are waiting for the loan to be approved and the collection of the car thereafter! It's a big investment and we are extremely excited about it. Can't wait to sit in it. Note that I used the word - "sit". I can't muster enough courage to drive the car yet. Too out of tune in driving. Asri is different, he dreams about the car and can't wait to drive it! If all goes well, we collect the car next Thursday...

Heartbroken

I've lost one side of my diamond earrings today. Probably dropped it at Compasspoint when I was carrying Rayden and he was struggling to get down to walk. I'm so so sad. Kyan sensed my sadness and he comforted me by telling me that he'll help me search for it. He did but to no avail. He even scolded Rayden for making me sad.